An Unnamed Relationship (Part-IV)

Are you really my nothing?

She was broken, shattered, completely lost in a world where she only had tears and memories to accompany her. Sahil even tried to give some explanations but she never wanted any because that proposal for her was a ‘be-all or an end-all’ and for the very first time she was on the rejection side. She never had imagined that hearing a ‘NO’ could be this difficult. She had lost someone who was not even hers. She kept on weeping and lamenting; heard the typical sad songs 30-30 times in a single day noticing the meaningful lyrics. Then, she decided to take a very practical approach towards it. She came to a realization that it is not important that the person you are in love with should love you back. Love is not a ‘give-and-take’ relationship. It is only ‘selfless-devotion’ where the main motto is that your love should be happy wherever and with whomsoever he/she is. There shouldn’t be any compulsion. It’s all about the happiness you see in your partner’s eyes. Tanya thought that if Sahil was happy with this decision then there is no point being sad.

But how was she going to forget him? To get through this problem she started avoiding him. She was unwilling even to look into his eyes because she knew that his eyes could easily cast a spell on her and she would fall in love with him over and over again. She tried to maintain a distance. The phone calls and text messages automatically got reduced and Tanya took a vow never to interfere in his personal life again since officially she was his no one. No matter how much she tried but she couldn’t eradicate the lovely memories. If Tanya was sad for whatever happened, Sahil was also not happy. It was getting difficult for him to bear the burden of hurting a girl who according to him was very pure. How would he fill the void? Were they moving on? Was it all over? These questions haunted both of them. Even today Sahil agrees that Tanya is the girl he has hurt the most. Tanya pasted a fake smile on her face to normalize things. Tanya’s love was always true and she had accepted that it was only a one-sided affair. But this four-letter word ‘LOVE’ carries an affection which does not depend on the quantity received. In true love it really doesn’t matter that your share of love will be returned or not.

Tanya just couldn’t stop loving him. It was silent but true. One day Tanya got to know from one of her friends that Sahil was guy famous for double dating. That particular friend mentioned two-three names with whom Sahil was ‘in a relationship’ at the same time about 2-3 months ago. This immediately struck Tanya’s mind that it was the same time when Sahil came close to her as well. She became dejected; feeling as if a guy came to her life; used her and left. Sahil had earlier mentioned that he was friends with those 2-3 chicks but he never told that he was committed and if he was he should not have said those romantic lines to Tanya. Tanya then decided to wait till Sahil himself comes up and confronts.

That very day when she was leaving the school campus Sahil came and said, "Hi!!"

“Hey” replied Tanya with a straight expressionless face. She continued  looking here and there, in order to avoid the conversation and said, “Well! I’m leaving to search my best friend Ahaana.”

“You’ve other good friends too, to spend your time with”, replied Sahil indicating himself.

“I only have Ahaana, Rahul and Sanchit as my good friends; NO ONE ELSE”, said Tanya exposing a pissed off face.

“Haww… Am I not your good friend?” asked Sahil expecting her to reply that he was the best buddy anyone could ever have.

“NO, YOU’RE MY NOTHING!” replied Tanya breaking the hope in a very straightforward tone. That was it. They didn’t exchange words and went away to their own respective places; one being angry and the other hurt.


To Be Continued...