An Unnamed Relationship (Part-II)

Oh my God…!! She confessed. Yes, she did confess her love and was happy because he liked her too or rather loved her too. She hung up the call and was now dancing, singing, admiring herself in the mirror like any other typical girl but one question crossed her mind that why he was sorry. “How can anyone be sorry for loving someone?” she said to herself. It is LOVE not a MISTAKE. She couldn’t answer her own questions so she left them in the back of her mind concentrating only on the beautiful incident which took place that day. The very next day they met and had a brief conversation.

“So, kaise ho?” she asked.

“Zinda hoon”, he replied in his trademark monotonous tone.

“So, ummm… Whatever happened yesterday..." 

“Actually it appeared to me that you wanted to hear it, so according to the situation I said such things”, interrupted Sahil. She was stunned and said to herself, “He said he loves me just to know whether I love him or not and not because he actually loves me.”  

Coming back to her senses, she asked, “So, that means it was not love. You react what situation demands.”

“Don’t be so serious. I was just playing.” 

“Playing? What?” she almost had tears in her eyes. 

“Don’t ever play with me Sahil” continued Tanya. 

Now Sahil realized what he said unknowingly had hurt Tanya. He was sorry for his behavior and she also soon forgot their first accidental fight.

Phone calls and text messages increased. No idea about Sahil but yes, Tanya got addicted to him (Baby, I’m addicted. I’m out of control and you are the drug that keeps me from dying.). For her, everything now revolved around him. She enjoyed it when her friends teased her with his name. She went to college only to catch his glimpse. The way they shared the tiffins was enough to complete her day. A smile on his face acted like her stress-buster. She believed that she was blessed to have such a fabulous person in her life and felt complete right on him but there was something else in store for her. Actually, Sahil had witnessed a messed up past where people whom he loved the most left him when he needed them. He had seen ups and downs of life at such a tender age that he was broken from inside. He was all shattered and had lost every single bit of self-esteem he earlier possessed. He was now aimless and directionless. All he wanted was a little hope and few words which could bring back his lost interest in life. He wanted someone who could hold his hand and say confidently looking into his eyes, “I know you can set things right. Just keep trying.” He wanted someone to fall back on when he lost his last ray of hope; someone he was answerable to; someone who could simply come up with a smile asking about how hectic his day was.” He could not see that potential in him. Sahil needed a guiding light that could help him develop faith in himself.

In between all this, Sahil took great care of Tanya. Maybe this was his caring nature or maybe there was some kind of spark between them. Still, Tanya was unsure. She kept questioning him, “Are we friends or are we more?” because for her ‘I love you’ meant a life time commitment. These words were eternal and she really meant it when she said it but was it the same with Sahil. Tanya knew that Sahil wanted to be happy but since he had not experienced success for long so he was pretending to be contented and cool with the bitter sadness. Sahil had many friends (girls particularly, some under the tag of ‘ex’ while some as ‘we are just friends’) and Tanya literally hated it when she often found his phone busy at 2:00 a.m. She never liked it when Sahil didn’t even bother to reply that he was busy and would talk later. She never wanted to hear Sahil’s story of ‘which-girl-said-what’ but how could she protest. After all, according to him she was just a friend and being only a friend gives a person no right to be this possessive.

To be continued.....