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| I beg, Stop Doubting me.. |
“When I don’t have any issues; my
parents don’t have any issues then why is everyone else busy influencing my
decisions?” came up a shrilled tone of her inner voice. She wanted to scream.
She wanted to cry out loud. She wanted to tell the world to just stop
interfering. She wanted to write in bold letters, “BE EVERYTHING YOU WANT TO
BUT DON’T DARE BE JUDGEMENTAL WHEN IT COMES TO MY CAPABILITIES”. She was
getting pissed off between many questions. She wanted an answer that why there
is a need to prove herself every time and specially to people who have no other
work apart from speaking demoralizing stuff and accusing for no reason. She was
really irritated and her inner self was begging everyone to believe her. Why
are relatives who are the limit of being orthodox so over-concerned about the
kids who are actually confident being stuck to their decisions?
She agrees that she is answerable
for her decisions but she also agrees that she is answerable only to her God,
her parents and her own conscience. No one else. Simply no one. She cares not
what people think until her conscience doesn’t give her a warning call. After
all she believes she is in the world not just to impress people but to express her
own self. Was she wrong? Was she being rude?
Well, I don’t think so. She wanted to study in a respectable college
after her 10+2. That’s it and she was being supported by her parents at each
and every step but the problem were only those relatives who had issues with
her different choice of course. Why going out of the league is so unacceptable
even today in this 21st century? Is it really so important to do
b.tech and become an engineer just because some relatives want this to happen
and even at that stage when you have least interest in technical set ups. She
wanted a simple life- a life without extra unwanted burdens.
She hated that straight forward judgment of her relatives
about her to her parents.
“Don’t send
her far because she is incapable.”
“She
cannot manage on her own.”
“I know she is choosing different courses because she doesn’t want to study.”
“I am very much sure that she must be engaged… maybe with some guy.”
“I
mean if she has to do a simple course then why to send her far away in some prestigious
institute.”
“She is a girl. Don’t let her go anywhere. Keep her near to you.”
Her parents always defended her.
They were her back up support but she couldn’t understand that why were there
so many heads popping up when she was going to try something altogether new.
Why were people speaking so much when they actually have no idea about her
future plans and above all why was it necessary to provide an explanation to
everybody. Why some souls cannot be ignored? She knew what she has to do in
life and she was also aware about the way of execution then why the hell was
there so much chaos and confusion? Why can’t it be something like, “I am
confident. Full stop.” There were many questions hovering her mind as in was it
really necessary to follow the same rat race? Why following her own dreams was
not an easy choice? Yes, there were difficulties but one thing she was sure of
and that was the fact that she has to be the best; no matter what. A better
human being; a high rank officer and most importantly the daughter who deserves
to be the pride of her parents.
No doubt, its difficult to trust
somebody again. Its hard to give someone a chance but isn’t it not worth giving
even a try. Yes she broke the trust some time ago but she is now trying really
hard to build it up again. Can’t that be a compensation? Being helplessly
helpless is one thing which takes time to overcome. She is trying her best and
leaving the rest to ALMIGHTY.
